My husband

Rocks. That's all I can say. Last night he reminded me of why I love this guy so much. I had a "meeting" over here (home) last night with some friends and I that were in a huge fight. Not fun, but something that needed to be done. Anyway, at one point, I started to cry and left the room. Ryan was in the room I walked into and the minute he saw me crying he said "what's wrong, who did it? They need to leave if they've upset you this much." Cute, protective, just what I LOVE. Anyway, the tempest got worse before it got better, but Ryan stayed in the room the whole time to try and assist us emotional women to some place of healing. Healing happened for the most part, and my friends and I decided to go to another friends house and clear the air. We were all outside and Ryan goes inside and gets me this HUGE jacket because he doesn't want me to get cold. Then, he goes back in and comes back with this ridiculous hat because he was worried about my hair being wet. So cute, right? Love him.

He knows me. He gets me. He respects me. He takes me for better and for worse. He takes care of me and our children. He is so responsible. Every morning I BEG him to stay home with us. Although tempted, he always makes the right choice!

Last night, while standing in the circle of crying girls, he touches my tummy and says, "Umm, Can I switch my order to a boy?" He always thought he wanted this baby to be a girl, but realized last night just how dramatic girls can be!

How can I already be so in love with someone I haven't even met?

I am so excited and feel so blessed to be carrying my fourth baby. I already feel so connected with this little bean inside me. I can't wait to have him in our life.

Our final installment......Maybe.

So, a couple days ago Ben is driving with me in the front seat (don't freak out moms, it was just in the tract on the way home from school) and he found a (used) pregnancy test (that I was cleverly hiding). I quickly tried to avert his attention by saying "Oh, Ben, that's gross. Put it down. It's got pee on it." While examining it, he says, "Oh....." He slowly puts it back into the center console. There was silence that was penetrable for about a minute. Then it came. "Well, was it positive mom? are you pregnant?" Well aware that he could read and probably already knew the answer, I answered honestly. "Yes Ben, I am. Isn't it awesome?" He had a huge grin on his face and said "Awesome!" My next words were said with some intensity...."But don't tell ANYONE. Dad doesn't even know yet!"

And so it was. My secret was safe with Ben. Until we told dad and Jake. And now all of you, since he and Jake now tell everybody and anybody they come in contact with.

We were a little taken aback but we are super excited. I always wanted a fourth and we thought about it in the summer, but this is perfect! Can't wait to meet the little man. Yes, I think it's a boy. But we won't find out until October when we deliver! I couldn't be happier to be able to bring another little Harvey into this world. Life is good. Until the morning sickness starts........

Benevolent Benjamin

I always thought I would write a children's book series called Benevolent Benjamin, inspired of course, by my sweet first born. Tonight Ben did something that completely displayed the kind of kid he is. We were in a parking structure and Jake wasn't paying attention. He was in the middle of the street walking while we had all crossed already. Ben and I said at the same time, "Jake, get out of the street." Ben could tell there was a car that was coming up the ramp into the structure. So Ben, my sweet, protective, cautious, brave boy went into the middle of the street and grabbed his little brother to make sure he was safe. He put himself in harms way to help his brother. He does this kind of stuff all the time. He is so safe and cautious. It must drive him nuts having a little reckless brother like Jake! I remember when Ben was younger, every bad dream he had revolved around Jake. Either Jake drowned or got hit by a car. It was terrible. But it was then I realized how much Ben worried for his sometimes careless little brother. Ben is a tender heart. He is warm and loving and a constant in my life. He is becoming my little man and love that we can joke around and have fun together. He has a sense of humor way beyond his years. Anyway, I love this boy so much and feel utterly blessed to be his mom. Here are some cute pics of the boy and things he did over the last year. In no particular order, because I'm not that good at this whole blogger thing.

Pic taken by Aunt Jill

Played his first season of basketball and did great. Even scored a couple baskets! He did awesome in soccer this year too and scored his first 2 goals!

Mad Kung Fu skills.

Last Christmas we took the best vacay ever to Colorado and stayed with these guys. We also got to see the Wirthlins, which was a double treat!

At our super fun trip to San Jose for Thanksgiving with McKenna.

His best friend for the past 5 years, Jackson.

What can I say, the boy likes to climb trees.

Best of buds. Most days.